They keep saying, ‘it gets easier’. I want to know WHEN.
The fog has lifted, my reality sets in.
I thought getting sober was gonna do the trick,
The choices I made flood in. Think I’m gonna be sick.
How could I have gotten this far? Buried in this illness?
Courage is what I need now. God, I don’t want to feel this.
Remembering the reasons I began to hide,
The anger rises up, resentment inside.
How could the alcohol have let me down?
It’s what was to save me as I began to drown.
My life preserver through all the pain,
Now my soul I must regain.
I am not the angry, bitter, lost life from before,
My sobriety will open new doors.
Doors to love, to respect, to family,
I can’t believe they still want me.
I’ll hold my head high because I know it gets better.
When my life’s over, I hope they remember.
Remember the courage it took to choose,
My life over you. Alcohol you lose.