Hello, I’m cody, and I have let addition control my life since the age of 13 years old.
Growing up in a wonderful loving family who has been so good to me as an adopted child, my real family were drug addicts as well and I was born in a penitentiary system and was put into foster care.
I always grew up with an abandonment issues and that controlled so much of me after high school. I fell off, doing what ever I wanted, to just find the love I always wanted.
Well, I found it.
I found the love of my life, He was the best thing to ever happen to me. He showed me that I was ok and I could be a good person and I have a good caring loving heart. And all he ever wanted was me to be sober, and I struggled so much everyday with that. He put up with it for 3 years till the one day I overdosed on drugs and was put in the hospital on cardiac arrest. The doctor told them I probably wouldn’t make it.
I have no idea what happened or anything. I have no memory of that day, but I came back to life with nothing. I lost the love of my life and trust with all family my music career. Now, time has passed and I’m learning that life is a gift. For whatever reason, I was spared.
Still, to this day I’m brought to tears, thankful for every day that I’m given, as I’m not promised tomorrow. And with all that I have no idea what happened in the hospital, but a motivation has come over me to fight this addiction and not run anymore and not be afraid to ask for help to grow and learn from my mistakes. I still even will attend treatment to learn more and grow and gain a bigger support group with this new journey and get help and help others as we fight this crazy disease. Only time will tell on this journey, but knowing that I can stay sober for just today, I have heard that stament so many times and never worked, it never worked cause I never wanted it.
Now wanting something so bad, I’m not going to back down. I’m going to fight this and grow each and every day. I finally see a light at the end of this dark tunnel. And maybe in the future restoration in my old fiance and family but till I show them, it’s not words and my actions will walk it out.
But willing to change for life and finally admit I have problem. I would never be where I am today. I wanna thank you for your time. Have a wonderful day.